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I’m not always shy

Perhaps, the hardest thing for me to do is to talk to people I don’t know. You know what’s also hard? Talking to people I do know. Like really spilling it. People who knew me for years were shocked when I started Lularoe and had to be convinced that I did, in fact, talk for hours on end for my job.

I’m an introvert with a capital I. Additionally, I’m shy. Like really shy. So I like to be alone, I live for those times, but I’m also not a very open person without invested time of peeling back layers. But something happened when it became my job to not be in my natural turtle shell of a state; I stretched when needed. I don’t have to pretend to be someone I’m not to sell Lularoe, but I have to be me in rare form. That rare form is a semi-outgoing Kayla who is very talkative and friendly and just… happy.

It’s not to say I’m not those things with people I’m closest to, but it’s just that… people I’m closest to don’t make me feel like I might be judged for something I say or do. (Typing this kind of brought about this new realization of what really is going on. YAY Blogging!) Basically, I have to skip ten friendship steps with my online audience and extend the trust that it’s okay to be transparent and free and me. I’ve never talked through this and realized what was actually happening.

I know from the start of this Lularoe thing in my life, I connected with people on live sales. People would come back and relationships were built. I was never phony but I know I was me in rare form. I like that phrasing; I’ll keep using it. This rare form isn’t natural for me when I’m not selling Lularoe, but doing this business has shown me that with practice, even the shyest introvert can sell the mess out of some dresses to strangers.

I hope there’s a shy person out there who feels encouraged to do the hard thing and put on the brave face next time life calls for it. With practice and the proper motivation, we can do what isn’t natural for some time and do it really well. It can become so comfortable to be positively you without the fear that shyness beckons as needed. I think that’s ultimately where the shyness comes from, comfort in being quiet and fear of judgment from those unknown. It’s hard to succeed at something new when comfort is the focus.   Perhaps comfort is something we should make an effort to stray from on the regular to keep stretching into humans that do new things, uncommon things. Oh, the things we’re capable of when we stretch. What is hard for you naturally, but you push through for the better?

How about that? I learned something new about this process and how it works by explaining it…. I can dig that. Stretch on!

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Why?

I think it’s important to know why you do what you do and how it’s significant to you and others. I have learned throughout the last two years that knowing why and sharing it, speaking it, living in that why is how I keep understanding my drive, joy, and passion for my “job.” Why do you do what you do? I challenge you to think about that. It has helped me keep my head down and persevere on hard days and been a cheerleader to me in the victories.

I found Lularoe at a middle road in my journey. No major highs or lows, and nothing so tumultuous, it just seemed like a good opportunity at a time when I wanted a little something more for myself to do and enjoy. I didn’t see the road ahead for what it was, but I finally committed to signing up at the beginning of a major growth in the company and a huge turning point in our lives. Luke was medically discharging from the military and we were going to be self-employed 100% with our first company and now the hobby.

I learned a lot about myself in the beginning of the Lularoe journey. I learned that I do not half-do anything. When I start something, and I think I can do it, I DO IT. I am a competitive goal-oriented person when I believe in what I’m doing, so when I started Lularoe and I loved it, I DID the dang thing. I built relationships without really knowing what I was doing, and quickly found that I loved going live and interacting with women from all over the country. I loved selling clothes to people on Periscope and ordering more and more and more clothes.

Lularoe became our primary source of income, and a team of women banded  with me and I never expected that. I had my socks BLESSED OFF. I say blessed intentionally because there was no seeing what was coming months later in 2016.

My sister had stage four Melanoma for years. At this point, nine years in June 2016, and the cancer had spread to her brain a year prior, but emergency surgery and radiation gave a lot of hope and a good year before the cancer started spreading and growing again. We didn’t know the radiation wouldn’t work and it would be found to have spread to her brain stem the next month, and seizures would happen and… and… and… so many unexpected things in my Kelsey’s life (my youngest daughter is also a Kelsey, but we’re talking sister Kels). I traveled for my first Lularoe event in July 2016, and bebopped up to Iowa the following week just in time to witness Kelsey’s first known seizure and spend several days with her in the hospital. And while it was not how we expected to spend my visit, it was seriously some of the most precious time we had. (Edited to add photos and our first discovery of the Snapchat that week.)

I spent about 1-2 weeks of each month the rest of 2016 being able to travel or carve out time for Kelsey. Without Lularoe, I don’t think I could have done that and my little family would have suffered financially. We had no clue we needed Lularoe in that season, and that is what fueled my fire for it. Freedom. Freedom to provide for my family and spend those precious moments where I needed to.

My sister won her battle December 12, 2016. I am so thankful for every single moment spent with her in 2016. Her last wish was to travel to see my family, at my house, in Louisiana, and she did in October. It was a great time with her and her daughter, Emily, and I still want to breathe in those moments often.

My job has been such a blessing the last couple years and remembering that it provides so much opportunity for the Kerley fam renews my passion to persevere on the days when the live sale flops or no one seems to see my posts on my VIP group. It allows me to be a creative individual and know that I’m more than any of my single roles as mom, friend, business owner, but I’m Kayla. I get to be entirely me, no facade, and people who have never met me have come to know and love me through this business and I’m eternally grateful.

This is my why. I’d love to know why you get out of bed. Why is what you do important to you?